I thought I was part of them but today, it seems like I was
totally wrong. They don’t even remember their moment with me. Not even one. They
did not point it out at all. Yes, maybe there is really nothing about me. Who am
I to them. Nothing. Even if I’m not around. It is so ok. They did it today
because someone elese could not be around. Not because of me. I don’t aspect
them to do it because of me too. No. it is just that. I really thought that I am
part of them and they will be incomplete without me. But, it is opposite of
what I thought. It will be better for them if I’m not there. I’m not supposed
to come. That will be cherrier. They missed Ha, they missed qish. But, did not
miss me at all. AT ALL. Sorry guys for squeezing into the group. Sorry for
making you guys make a space for me. i
know that I am so not invited. What a silly me. rushing to meet you guys. Excited
to hug and never let go of you guys. Wanted to be with you guys all the time. Sorry
for being the burden. Sorry for talking crap that you guys don’t want to hear. I
really am sorry. You guys soo don’t ned me.sorry for all the crap, rubbish came
out from this voice you don’t even want to come across. Deep inside, I really
was hoping that what I thought was wrong. But, my instinct usually right. That is
the sad part. Maybe I am that bad. I don’t deserve any of lib=ving person. I am
evil. I am heartless. I am selfish. I am annoying. Sorry.i’ll miss you guys n
will remember each and everyone of you though no one will of me. ok, InsyaAllah now i'll smile again and never tell.
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| he has more reason to cry than me. isn't it? |
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